I don't mean you all... my loyal and cool readers (honest, I think the coolies tend to have blogs these days!) I mean most other people seem to me to be so.... bland. Bland I guess is a good term for it. Don't get me wrong, I don't think I am perfect, or so witty that no-one can stop laughing the whole time they are with me, or so wise that I can solve the Middle East Peace crisis in a nano-second if I tried. I do think I am a little weird, sometimes funny and insightful and occasionally vain I have to admit. I DO have a great hair and I know it. LOL What I do is I keep looking, poking, hinting and probing to find something, some "inner funk" in others and I rarely seem to find it.
Are people just afraid to be different these days? Is their inner strange/random/goofy/funky/crazy self bottled up, waiting for someone to find the key to unlock it? Or are people really just like houses in a track home neighborhood... the same on the outside and inside? Or am I expecting too much from people? Because I want to discover some little thing that makes me sit up, take notice and admire and maybe even envy about them. I guess I want to be amazed, I want to be surprised and I want to feel perhaps, not so alone out here.
Because I know I am different... I don't worry about my butt being too big, I don't stress over a wrinkle, I don't try to pretend that I am mistake free or just not like everyone else. I don't want to be the perfect soccer mom, I don't want to do what everyone else does just to fit in. I want to revel sometimes in the absurdness of life. I want to bask in the glory of uniqueness and I want to be known as a person who lived by her own rules (and one who had too many cats..haha) and I want to meet other people, people just like me whom I can relate to, and discuss cranberry bogs and Harry Potter Quotes and the absolute beauty of Johnny Depp... and anything else that randomly comes to mind without looking and feeling like some half-baked fool. Is that aiming too high?
Thank goodness I have YOU ALL here with me! Now you all just have to move to Cali and keep me company!!!