As I sit here blogging this post, my son woke up 2 hours too early and I am so annoyed with my lack of "me" time that I am not playing with him, and I am slightly resentful. I woke up at 5:30 AM just to have an hour alone... well guess who woke at 5:45 AM? Jack!!!
I love my boys so much. But my lack of alone time upsets me, tires me and makes me feel a slight resentment. I know I only have two children, and many other moms who stay at home have it worse...but for some reason I have a hard time letting go of my pre-mom days when I had time to myself to read, play, talk on the phone, take a bath or lay with my cats. I just want an hour or two... is that too much to ask?
I know its not just me... But I start feeling like the more I feel this way, the worse my kids will be. They are not "bad" kids...but they have their issues, their bad days, their good days. I guess just like me. I know being a mom is about sacrificing...but sometimes I want to be selfish and do what I want...
So, I am off to play with my son. It would help me to know that sometimes you all feel this way, and sometimes you are not a perfect mom and ignore your kids for 15 minutes, it would help to know I am not the only crazy person getting up at 5:30 AM just to be alone!!!