Friends...or why is it so hard to have some

I swear, I am not a scary devil worshipping Atheist, I am a normal person, I have a job, I have kids, I have interests... I am fat AKA chunky AKA Fluffy...ect....and P.S. I am Agnostic, not an Atheist... When I was home and not working, I was always on the lookout for friends to hang with, to have play dates with my kids... I was virtually ignored at the park, even though I am a friendly person and I smile at people. I started to think (and I still do) that it was my fat self that made people not want to talk to me. I think I was a victim of stereotyping. I was categorized as fat, lazy and white trash. When someone did talk to me, when I did not respond to the inevitable "religious" talk (I live in a super conservative town, we have a ton of churches) I was then ignored next time we crossed paths at the park. I never had a problem making friends when I lived in a more diverse town...whats the deal? Was it me? I mean, I didn't start talking Harry Potter and how I am hot for Lucius Malfoy or anything... LOL!!! Even I might run away from that kind of talk at a first meeting! Personally, I think its because I am not "cookie cutter" like so many women aspire to be. I wonder if its almost like the men who enjoy bigger women but wont go out with them because their friends might make fun of them... Hmmmmm
Oh well... I enjoy my life and my kids... I just wish I had a friend (that lives close by) I could share my thoughts, problems and dreams with. I do have to give a shout out to my Internet friends who love me for who I am, or maybe in spite of who I am... LOL!!!