You cant recover? I feel like I am drowning... drowning in bills, obligations, payment plans...
We are renting now, our house has been foreclosed. (no judgment please) Not something to be proud of, something that was necessary. Bad choices we will not make again. Now we face the choice of moving again. we need to save money somewhere and a smaller house may have to suffice.
How much more can we cut out? We are getting rid of cell phones and going to pay per minute phones (my husband commutes, its necessary I think) Once our contract is up for cable TV, that will be gone. I refuse to give up internet... I think I would die if I couldn't vent to my online friends. We eat out once a week... we probably should cut this out, I am sure we will be. I feel hopeless sometimes. Like we can never recover.
I feel guilty that my boys cannot do fun things, we cannot sign up for T ball, Music class... I feel like they are being short changed because of my mistakes. Yes, I love them...but they deserve so much more.
I think I need to remember the things I am thankful for, right now I am having a hard time doing that.
Tomorrow. Back to our regularly scheduled program.