MamaKats Assignment was this"
Choose a prompt:
1.) The last time I laughed really hard...
2.) Forgive and forget...I think.
3.) I remember when...
4.) Write about something that bothered you this week.
5.) Write a poem about a favorite color.
I picked number 2!
Forgiving and forgetting... that is one of the hardest things for me to do. I am a grudge carrier... I am the Elephant... I never forget. Even though I realize that I am hurting no one more than I hurt myself. Yet, I cant seem to help myself.
Why is it so hard to forgive and forget? Is it just something elemental? Or it it our ego that wont let us let go? I know in my heart that to forgive is to turn a corner, learn a lesson and make the hurt, betrayal and anger into something worthwhile. Something useful, dare I say something almost beautiful? For there is beauty in self discovery... in humility... in empathy... and in forgiveness. We become better human beings, we become worthy of forgiveness ourselves.
But who will forgive me if I cannot practice what I preach? I am striving to do so. Every day it gets a little easier. I think I have a harder time forgiving myself of transgressions, mistakes and bad behavior.
Ive done things I don't like to admit to, Ive hurt people, Ive been meaner than I should have been. Two wrongs don't make a right. Forgiving yourself is a hard won gift you can give yourself. I just wish I had the courage to do it.
Mahatma Ghandi said these words: The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong.
I hope to become stronger and do these wise words justice.